Hey! This is a random, random blog for you guys.
Okay so my mom has been doing community service with young people since I was 5. She started her first company, Shadimke Enterprises based on my name, Rashaad, my sister's name IMari, and her name KErri focusing on empowering young people. So as the years roll by she begins working on a new company. She's laid out all sorts of things from God and has been working on that diligently.
She wrote a manuscript for her book in like 2005. She was able to do some of the workshops outlined in her book at the Department of Labor in Covington. So she's been doing this for a while.
So we move to a new house and we rent a U-Haul. We moved our things and mama returned the U-Haul. She went back home to look for her stuff when she realizes that she left her notebook with the manuscript and everything in the U-Haul truck. We go back and the notebook and things are gone. Someone stole the manuscript. This was in May 2008.
Okay so this lady at my church sends out this weekly email blast with info about jobs, schools, activities, and events and all that good stuff. Tell me why when I opened the blast today July 12, 2009 I see the title of my mom's Book/Program. I'm like ummm... okay... so as I'm reading it, I see that it is the Exact Same program as my mom's. The only thing that they changed was the target age. They also said that there was a book that comes along with the workshop that the "facilitator" wrote. I'm like OMG! It's my mama's book! I woke her up and she was on fye! Lol. She's drawing up her papers and everything. Lawd hammercy that lady who is pushin this is about to get sat down!
SMH...
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Life
I celebrated my 20th birthday yesterday. I'm so thankful that God has given me the gift of life and has kept me covered under His blood. God's been so good, I couldn't tell it if I tried.
I found out Friday that one of my closest friends died in her sleep Thursday evening at age 21. I was so shocked by the news because it was so unexpected. Many thoughts overtook my mind.
One thought however, stood out like a sore thumb. that thought was... "What could we have done differently?"
Last year in June, my friend that died and I had a big fight. I asked someone a question regarding her and they took what I said and manipulated it to be whatever they told her and she became angry with me. When I got the phone call from her, she let me have it. I didn't get a chance to say anything because when I started to defend myself she kept cutting me off. She then gave the phone to one of our other friends because like her, he HEARD that I said something about him too. He let me have it as well and the entire time I cried silently to myself because I knew someone rearranged my words and started something major - disturbing our friendship. He then declared our friendship of ten years, over. What could I do? They didn't want to talk to me and at that moment, I was angry because first, they didn't give me a chance to speak and second, because it simply wasn't true so..I didn't want to talk either.
Well, time passed and we didn't talk for at least a month. I thank God for my mom. She made me call and apologize even when I KNEW I wasn't wrong. I rebelled and kept saying I wasn't calling. Eventually I broke down and called her and apologized. I apologized for the way it got back to her but that wasn't what I said. I'm thinking to myself.... "Dang. I've known her since we were 12. Why would I THINK about saying something like that? We've been thru too much." After I apologized she said okay and thank you. I had no idea that those words would be the very last ones I would hear her say.
Life Has a Funny Way of Living......
Again, I'm so so so thankful that God spoke to my mom and led her to tell me to apologize. I'm sure if I didn't, my guilt somehow would be eating me alive. Thank God for Mama's Instinct.
I shared all of that for two reasons. First off, appreciate every moment of life given to you. Celebrate everyday as your birthday because like my friend, you could lay down and not get back up. God has given you the GIFT of today that's why it's called the PRESENT. Secondly, love your friends. Love your friends how Christ described in the book of John 15:13 - "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends." As you read above, life is way too short to let some "He-Say, She-Say" mess dictate your friendship. Keep it 100% with each other and everything will be good. I lost a very good friend over words. Words that meant nothing. Words that were played with and meant everything. Be careful what you say but more importantly, HOW you say it. Words are Power. There is Life and Death in the Power of the tongue. Think before you speak.
I pray that as you read this, you came to a point where you thank God for life and not take any moment for granted. Always remember to love your friends thru every situation. If there's a problem or issue, whenever there is beef, just take it, grill it up, and eat it. Until Next Time, I'm
Dreaming In Him,
Rashaad
I found out Friday that one of my closest friends died in her sleep Thursday evening at age 21. I was so shocked by the news because it was so unexpected. Many thoughts overtook my mind.
One thought however, stood out like a sore thumb. that thought was... "What could we have done differently?"
Last year in June, my friend that died and I had a big fight. I asked someone a question regarding her and they took what I said and manipulated it to be whatever they told her and she became angry with me. When I got the phone call from her, she let me have it. I didn't get a chance to say anything because when I started to defend myself she kept cutting me off. She then gave the phone to one of our other friends because like her, he HEARD that I said something about him too. He let me have it as well and the entire time I cried silently to myself because I knew someone rearranged my words and started something major - disturbing our friendship. He then declared our friendship of ten years, over. What could I do? They didn't want to talk to me and at that moment, I was angry because first, they didn't give me a chance to speak and second, because it simply wasn't true so..I didn't want to talk either.
Well, time passed and we didn't talk for at least a month. I thank God for my mom. She made me call and apologize even when I KNEW I wasn't wrong. I rebelled and kept saying I wasn't calling. Eventually I broke down and called her and apologized. I apologized for the way it got back to her but that wasn't what I said. I'm thinking to myself.... "Dang. I've known her since we were 12. Why would I THINK about saying something like that? We've been thru too much." After I apologized she said okay and thank you. I had no idea that those words would be the very last ones I would hear her say.
Life Has a Funny Way of Living......
Again, I'm so so so thankful that God spoke to my mom and led her to tell me to apologize. I'm sure if I didn't, my guilt somehow would be eating me alive. Thank God for Mama's Instinct.
I shared all of that for two reasons. First off, appreciate every moment of life given to you. Celebrate everyday as your birthday because like my friend, you could lay down and not get back up. God has given you the GIFT of today that's why it's called the PRESENT. Secondly, love your friends. Love your friends how Christ described in the book of John 15:13 - "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends." As you read above, life is way too short to let some "He-Say, She-Say" mess dictate your friendship. Keep it 100% with each other and everything will be good. I lost a very good friend over words. Words that meant nothing. Words that were played with and meant everything. Be careful what you say but more importantly, HOW you say it. Words are Power. There is Life and Death in the Power of the tongue. Think before you speak.
I pray that as you read this, you came to a point where you thank God for life and not take any moment for granted. Always remember to love your friends thru every situation. If there's a problem or issue, whenever there is beef, just take it, grill it up, and eat it. Until Next Time, I'm
Dreaming In Him,
Rashaad
Monday, July 6, 2009
Anxiety Attack!
Hey! This is actually my very first OFFICIAL blog! Since it's the first, i've decided to hit you with a little situation I went through recently.
Well if you don't already know..I haven't had a phone in some months..It's been hard but I'm actually GLAD I don't have one just yet. I still have some growing to do mentally and spiritually so I take the absence of a phone as a class with God as the Professor. Thank ya Jesus for the lessons!
So...Tuesday, I went to church because I serve in the television ministry so I figured you know..Here's my chance to serve..Well after service I saw one of the producers bless someone with a phone. I asked if she had anymore and she said yes. She told me she would give me a phone! I was smiling like ccrazy because I KNEW I was getting a phone! Then after that, the lady who the producer blessed told me that when she got the phone activated, she would give me her phone! I'm like gone head Lawd!!!
So the producer tells me to txt her Saturday and remind her to bring it to church with her on Sunday. I did..She said ok...
Well Sunday I got up and I was upset because I was running late..Ugh. I HATE running late. I said a mini prayer and kept it movin...BAD move..I was in the bathroom getting ready when I heard grandma get up. I had to put myself on hold and help her to the bathroom and whatnot. I was getting irritated because my mama was supposed to get up with her but she didn't becuz she was still tired from the 4th..then I asked Imari to help and she was taking her precious time. I'm like UGH! I gotta go! So....
I go in my room and change and I need money for the bus so I'm callin mama from the house phone on her cell and I have a major attitude because it's now 9AM and the shuttle that goes directly to the church leaves at 9:15-9:30. I'm RUSHING. Anxious to get to church, not to praise Him but to get a phone. So...eventually I leave and catch the bus to the train to the station and behold...the shuttle is gone. I'm like NO! So..I get on the 86 and wait for the driver to come. He takes his time so now its like almost 10 and I'm like ugh man. I'm riding the bus and as I get closer to the church this guy gets on the bus with a shirt on that says "RELAX, God is in control". So there's nun I can do on the bus except talk to God. Sadly, I didn't...
I get to church and because I was rushing out the house I didn't even check the weather. It rained..It almost caught me but thankfully Ms. Tonya picked me up...Well, after church the producer gives me the phone and says she hopes Metro can flash it over becuz its Sprint..I get home and try the phone out. The phone won't work unless it's on the charger. That's just a smaller house phone. I can't go mobile. I was messed up all day yesterday.
In the midst of all that confusion God was whispering to me...be still and wait. I'm ignoring Him and He's still saying Rashaad, just be still and wait. I went through hell trying to get to church for something that I can't even use. I was in a hurry to get nowhere. I'm glad to say now, I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON!!!God broke me down yesterday and it's my goal to let you know that even tho something sounds promising to you, do NOT be in a hurry to get it! Take your time and make sure everything is in order. God is in TOTAL Control. It is my prayer that we ALL learn something from this...Just be patient..If not, you might end up like me...Having an Anxiety Attack!!! Until Next Time...I'm
Dreaming In Him,
Rashaad
Well if you don't already know..I haven't had a phone in some months..It's been hard but I'm actually GLAD I don't have one just yet. I still have some growing to do mentally and spiritually so I take the absence of a phone as a class with God as the Professor. Thank ya Jesus for the lessons!
So...Tuesday, I went to church because I serve in the television ministry so I figured you know..Here's my chance to serve..Well after service I saw one of the producers bless someone with a phone. I asked if she had anymore and she said yes. She told me she would give me a phone! I was smiling like ccrazy because I KNEW I was getting a phone! Then after that, the lady who the producer blessed told me that when she got the phone activated, she would give me her phone! I'm like gone head Lawd!!!
So the producer tells me to txt her Saturday and remind her to bring it to church with her on Sunday. I did..She said ok...
Well Sunday I got up and I was upset because I was running late..Ugh. I HATE running late. I said a mini prayer and kept it movin...BAD move..I was in the bathroom getting ready when I heard grandma get up. I had to put myself on hold and help her to the bathroom and whatnot. I was getting irritated because my mama was supposed to get up with her but she didn't becuz she was still tired from the 4th..then I asked Imari to help and she was taking her precious time. I'm like UGH! I gotta go! So....
I go in my room and change and I need money for the bus so I'm callin mama from the house phone on her cell and I have a major attitude because it's now 9AM and the shuttle that goes directly to the church leaves at 9:15-9:30. I'm RUSHING. Anxious to get to church, not to praise Him but to get a phone. So...eventually I leave and catch the bus to the train to the station and behold...the shuttle is gone. I'm like NO! So..I get on the 86 and wait for the driver to come. He takes his time so now its like almost 10 and I'm like ugh man. I'm riding the bus and as I get closer to the church this guy gets on the bus with a shirt on that says "RELAX, God is in control". So there's nun I can do on the bus except talk to God. Sadly, I didn't...
I get to church and because I was rushing out the house I didn't even check the weather. It rained..It almost caught me but thankfully Ms. Tonya picked me up...Well, after church the producer gives me the phone and says she hopes Metro can flash it over becuz its Sprint..I get home and try the phone out. The phone won't work unless it's on the charger. That's just a smaller house phone. I can't go mobile. I was messed up all day yesterday.
In the midst of all that confusion God was whispering to me...be still and wait. I'm ignoring Him and He's still saying Rashaad, just be still and wait. I went through hell trying to get to church for something that I can't even use. I was in a hurry to get nowhere. I'm glad to say now, I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON!!!God broke me down yesterday and it's my goal to let you know that even tho something sounds promising to you, do NOT be in a hurry to get it! Take your time and make sure everything is in order. God is in TOTAL Control. It is my prayer that we ALL learn something from this...Just be patient..If not, you might end up like me...Having an Anxiety Attack!!! Until Next Time...I'm
Dreaming In Him,
Rashaad
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