Anxiety Attack!

Hey! This is actually my very first OFFICIAL blog! Since it's the first, i've decided to hit you with a little situation I went through recently.

Well if you don't already know..I haven't had a phone in some months..It's been hard but I'm actually GLAD I don't have one just yet. I still have some growing to do mentally and spiritually so I take the absence of a phone as a class with God as the Professor. Thank ya Jesus for the lessons!

So...Tuesday, I went to church because I serve in the television ministry so I figured you know..Here's my chance to serve..Well after service I saw one of the producers bless someone with a phone. I asked if she had anymore and she said yes. She told me she would give me a phone! I was smiling like ccrazy because I KNEW I was getting a phone! Then after that, the lady who the producer blessed told me that when she got the phone activated, she would give me her phone! I'm like gone head Lawd!!!

So the producer tells me to txt her Saturday and remind her to bring it to church with her on Sunday. I did..She said ok...

Well Sunday I got up and I was upset because I was running late..Ugh. I HATE running late. I said a mini prayer and kept it movin...BAD move..I was in the bathroom getting ready when I heard grandma get up. I had to put myself on hold and help her to the bathroom and whatnot. I was getting irritated because my mama was supposed to get up with her but she didn't becuz she was still tired from the 4th..then I asked Imari to help and she was taking her precious time. I'm like UGH! I gotta go! So....

I go in my room and change and I need money for the bus so I'm callin mama from the house phone on her cell and I have a major attitude because it's now 9AM and the shuttle that goes directly to the church leaves at 9:15-9:30. I'm RUSHING. Anxious to get to church, not to praise Him but to get a phone. So...eventually I leave and catch the bus to the train to the station and behold...the shuttle is gone. I'm like NO! So..I get on the 86 and wait for the driver to come. He takes his time so now its like almost 10 and I'm like ugh man. I'm riding the bus and as I get closer to the church this guy gets on the bus with a shirt on that says "RELAX, God is in control". So there's nun I can do on the bus except talk to God. Sadly, I didn't...

I get to church and because I was rushing out the house I didn't even check the weather. It rained..It almost caught me but thankfully Ms. Tonya picked me up...Well, after church the producer gives me the phone and says she hopes Metro can flash it over becuz its Sprint..I get home and try the phone out. The phone won't work unless it's on the charger. That's just a smaller house phone. I can't go mobile. I was messed up all day yesterday.

In the midst of all that confusion God was whispering to me...be still and wait. I'm ignoring Him and He's still saying Rashaad, just be still and wait. I went through hell trying to get to church for something that I can't even use. I was in a hurry to get nowhere. I'm glad to say now, I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON!!!God broke me down yesterday and it's my goal to let you know that even tho something sounds promising to you, do NOT be in a hurry to get it! Take your time and make sure everything is in order. God is in TOTAL Control. It is my prayer that we ALL learn something from this...Just be patient..If not, you might end up like me...Having an Anxiety Attack!!! Until Next Time...I'm

Dreaming In Him,
Rashaad